Wednesday, May 30, 2007
hmmm ... com spoil ... send for repair ... would be back by weekend ... hehe ...
dun know whether to watch the band concert ma ... i dun know i feel that .... haiz ... see how first lo ...
friday concert coming up ... n i am seriously very tired ... altho i sleep alot lately ... mentally tired ... had been practicing till nine everyday ... seven hrs ... my throat dying le ... poto in the end onli 10 pple singing ... arghhhh ... i am looking n not looking forward to it ...
at the start of lesson derrick would go darlings lets start ... everyone would puke ... then leslie would go honeyes lets start ... lol ...
frastrated ... many stuff ... juz simply dun feel like typing everything out ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:52 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
lots to say ... really thanks pan alot ...
hmmmm ... something just went wrong wif the PW gp ... everything is like haiz ....
really getting very busy ... nxt week practicing everyday ... preparing for the concert ... trying to get everything in place ... gg out for a few concert myself ... looking forward to it ... music makes my life ... it is the only thing that can make me relax and happy =D ... practice until having sore-throat ... hopes it recovers quickly ... or else wont be in a good condition to perform lol ...
nothing goes smoothly in life ... there would be some obstraction here and there ...
gd luck bb-boys for this friday match ... i really hope they will win ... they are really good ... at least to a bball idoit like me ... haha ... they went to the finals ... and are playing against hwa chong this friday ... all the best guys ...
really feel like putting up some photo ... other time ba ...
concert coming ... leslie leaving ... senior leaving ... haiz ... it's quite sad ... it makes me look forward and dont look forward to it ... but the thought of so many leaving really make everything look so sad ... the last performance wif them ... esp leslie ... hope he do well in his america thinggy ...
shi jian mei you bu shan de yan xi ... na de qi, fang de xia ...
there is juz something i dun like onli ... i mean it is always so shocking ... n i dun like it ...
things wont always go the way u wan ...
tml chem test ... n seriously i dun intend to sleep ... b'cos i dun understand a thing that i amm gg to be tested tml ... so burn mid-night oil ... seriously i am very tired now ... haven been sleeping well last few days ... jia you ... three more days to go ...
i know that june holiday starting ... but we still need to go back and study all that ... but the thought and word holiday just make you feel better ... i dun know why ... maybe from small we are thought to be happy during holiday ... so it doesnt really matter we are gg back to sch on holi anot ... as long as the word holi is there is enough to make me look forward to it =D ...
keep forgetting to return a library book ... haha ... the libraruan is gg to kill me lolz ...
gg to get my com repair this weekend ...
i really hope time would stop ...
so many stuff is happening ... i am losing track of everything ...
tok abt my holiday first ...
1. 28/05 - 06/06 -> all the extra lesson
2. 26/05 - 01/06 -> concert stuff
3. 27/05 -> cocert at esp
4. 02/06 & 09/06 -> flash wksp
5. 23/06 -> CSI @ NUS
6. 30/05 -> band concert & icon finale
7. 18/06 & 21/06 ->PW stuff
~ this is juz currently ... more to come lo ... frankly speaking my holiday are really gone ... all things are like spread out thru out the whole holiday ... still got more stuff i haven get the date and stuff yet ... my things are all clashing .. first two week very intensive ... but no matter wad holi still cheer me up =) ...
my head is really hurting ... really trying to make myself forget abt it and study ... still got alot of stuff to do ... flu much better liao ... my leg also hurting badly ... sore-throat and stuff ... haiz ... 'sick cat' ... lolz ... >>sick
nag alot ... haha ... crap alot too ... lol ... anyway su zhuang jia you ... everyone jia you too ... go go go !!!!
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:26 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
feeling very sick ....
tml got econs test ... i know surely cant make it de ... haiz ...
i am really gg mad ...
- to be or not to be, that is a question -
人們可以控制自己的命運 若我們受制於人 那錯不在命運 而在我們自己
jia you!!!
>she bu dehaiz,
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
6:50 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
haiz ... i am having a flu now ... having headache ... and sore-throat ... feel very sick ... but still got alot of stuff to be done ... i am really splitting up le ... haiz ...
i was once looking forward to it ... but now i dun look forward to it anymore ...
heard that leslie leaving after the concert ... everyone was acting like it is ok ... but i can see that the atmosphere become quite solemn after this news ... he is a good teacher ... juz hope that the concert would go out well ... althou like not long ... but everyone had been working very hard ... so sad ... it is the last performance wif him ... i dun know i juz feel so weird ... it is mend to be a happy occasion de ...
i got alot of things in mind ...
ti qian suo zai hu de, xian zai bu zai hu le ... yi qian bu zai hu de, wo xian zai hen zai hu le ... ren shen de zuan bian ... yong yuan dou shi bu zhi bu jue de ...
i am having alot of test this coming week ... pray hard that this week would pass quickly ... i am really very tired le ...
it has become a routine ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
4:44 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
面对压力除了哭还是哭
我讨厌这样的自己
我的无奈和无助
好累
真的无能为力
死了算了
真的
活着很累
有时候真的希望自己没活在这世界上
没地方发泄
我真的很想放弃
千言万语。。。
我必须承认我的笑一天比一天僵硬了
从前的我到那里去了
我真的很怀念以前的日子
以前的朋友
以前的一切
但时间不会停下来
它不停地走着
这是个残酷的事实
该如何是好呢?
素庄
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
11:25 PM
the sing today sux man ... ok at least it is an experience ... we enjoyed ...
still gt loads of essay to write ... this friday summer test ... then sports day ... the choir prac till eight plus ...
i am already very tired le ...
sz jia you ...
SZ
8:31 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
juz a reflection before i rest that's all ...
i was lucky enough not to be called during econs lesson ... quite a few times i was almost called, but lucky me ... i manage to escape ... thanks lady luck ...
my head is really cracking up like nobody's business ... it ache suddenly ... it hurts alot ...
gg to rest soon ... but wont sleep so early ... finish my hmwk for tml ... gg to read up on econs ... cant escape for life .. lolz ...
tml go performance ... got PE ... got to see teacher ... haiz ... coming home very late ... i realise i like my home more than my sch ... i had been counting down to june holi .. ya need to go back to sch ... but i dun know ... juz looking forward to it ...
alot of things to be done ... i am really tired ...
i really feel very bad for not acc her yesterdays ... haiz ...
i really dun know wad to say ...
thanks for giving me so much ... but it is juz so impossible ... i am really very sorry if i hurt u ... i really appreciate it ...i miss everyone ... the old times ... the past always look so beautiful ... time nvr stops ... juz got to accept ... the three fatal failure ... hmmm ... muz rmb ... jia you sz ... jia you jia you ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:18 PM
feel so bad ... i didnt spend time wif mummy during mother's day ... she didnt say anything ... she tell me to stay at home study de ... but i juz feel so bad ... ok ... it is my fault that i dun do my hmwk fast enough ... haiz ...
tml performing ... quite nervous ... maybe b'cos i still dun know my piece well ...
i mess up my drama thinggy ... it was so funni la ... i juz laugh all the way ... haha ...
had been training quite intensely this few weeks ... muz support the concert k ... haha ... anyway we need to come back on vesak day too ... haiz ... my holi gone ...
the ICON thinggy is ending soon ... thanks goodness ... haha ...
later econs ... so sad ... koh ... haiz ... the worst part is forst lesson i already forget to bring something ... hope she dun call me b'cos i forget to bring it ... which is unlikely ... lol ... god bless ...
haven been feeling well ... haiz ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
12:31 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
哭了一场后，心情好了很多
我很累
感觉上快要无法呼吸了
整个胸口闷闷的
压力很大
再这样下去我会崩溃的
每次都做功课做到哭
我想我要破记录了
现在的感觉真的很不好
我不知道怎样形容
快喘不过气了
没有人会明白的有时真的能感觉到心跳停止了
我的眼泪不会让别人看到
我会默默地哭
哭了过后感觉好了很多。。。
其实这几天发生满多有趣的事，说来话长，那就不说了
很忙很忙
blah blah blah …
i dun know wad am i toking ... my mind is so blank and messy ...
anyway do come down to support the concert if u are free =D
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
3:28 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
vox astra's 1st concert:voix: voices unleashed!on 1/6/07, 7.30pm @ IJCcome down to support if u are free =D~ surprise awaits u =Dtrying to get my pw done ... juz reach home ... my eyes are closing ... haven been sleeping alot lately ...
headache ...
econs review anyhow write .... that mrs koh very troublesome ... my head are getting bigger already ...
so many work to do ... maybe will sacrifices mother day celebration ... i dun know .. but my mum wont be happy if i insist og staying at home de ... but wad to do .. really alot of work to do .. tml still got CCA till two ... how to study like that ... i am really bursting ...
things haven been gg on smoothly ... yap alot of difficulties here and there ... all my results sux ... shall not elaborate more ... no point ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
11:38 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
i dun know where to start or how to start so many thing to say ... haiz ... haha ... always vent my anger here ... hehe ... so dun bother to read ...
mr tan leaving, today econs lesson everyone so moody, actually everyone moody not b'cos he leaving, but the main reason is that mrs koh coming to teach us ... ok she is a gd teacher ... she have our interest in mind ... but i juz dun like it that's all ...
econs test is like shit ... i studied ... but still fail ... the teacher wrote ... interesting argument, can see u study very hard ... alto i know i didnt study very hard la ... the concepts are all wrong ... i didnt ans wad they wan ... damn ..... o n i dun like that too ...
something wrong wif my com ... flare up ...
i dun know ... my math test also very lan ... although i pass by half marks ... it is still very lousy ... i mean i know i can do better de ... dissappointed ...
then eng vocab test worst ... i make it a pt to copy everything, and i got learn ... ok la ... maybe did study very well ... but i studied k ... n wad stupid marks i get ... two marks ... my mind just went blank when i sit for the paper ...
then it was choir ... i thought it would lighten my heart ... music tame the beast ... it did ... but .... ok maybe i too sensitive or wad ... i dun know ... i juz dun like it ... so my mood was spoil again ... but i still enjoy it la ... simply love music ...
then six plus got bio lesson ... so left early ... but there isnt anyone there ... i was like damn flare up la ... make me leave early in the end no one there ... the that np everything also dun know ... everything i do ... my hand so full ... she still got the cheek to ... nvm ... i am not joking ... when i said that to u i mean it ... so they finally arrived ... n it ended at seven plus all thanks to them ... i dun wann asay who la ...
as if i am the onli one worrying like that ... bloody shit ...
i dun know ... the thought just occur to me that would it be better of dying ... dun take it to heart ... it jus happens that this thought come to me today ... hahahaha ...
tml got bio test ... still got essay ... alot alot of hmwk to do ... but not in the mood now ... i dun care ... anyway i preparing not to sleep tonight le ...
napfa is like shit man ... dun say le ...
just stressed that's all ...
i am getting abit sick n tired of life ...
our GPP is like ... no comments ... we are so busy that we didnt even have a time that everyone can meet together ... even the teacher can sense something is wrong wif our gp .. i dun care u like who dun like who ... i really got nth more to say ... this is it ...
i understand nth ...
i am not gg to continue ... i would go non-stop ... end here ... i juz dun wish to tok or say anymore ... no pt saying anything ... nth could be done ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:21 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
nothing can describe my feeling now ...
i also dun understand myself now ...
i've got nothing to say ...
tired that's all ~
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
2:59 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
the madrigals really very nice, somehow or rather it is still in my head ... i love music, hehe ... it's really .....
tml gg back to sch till twelve ... jia you jia you ...
juz reach home, really very tired, but it is an opportunities that everyone get together, it's great =D ...
huo xu bu ying gai xi wang shen me de ...
zhai zui qiu xia qu ye mei yong ...
suan le, shuo le ye mei yong ...
mei you ren hu liao jie de ...
tired
test, exam, test, exam ... my life ... haiz ...
i forget wad i wanna say liao, must forced myshelf awake, nxt week too much exam le, i cant keep up the pace ... muz work hard over weekend, i like study for the whole week didnt rest like that, haiz ... forget it ...
i forget wad to say le ... my brain not functioning well le ... muz leave some space of my studies ...
mugging ... jia you ba ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
11:21 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
去了老人院，感触很多。人生是如此。看着他们的可望，而我却无能为力。这样的生活没有人会想要。看着他们难以表达的面孔，而我们却满面的不明白。好象以世隔绝似的。所有的病痛，寂寞，和无助。看了真的很伤心。真的很想伸手帮助他们。这样的人生，无法选择，也无能为力。
我的无奈又有谁懂呢
今天到了学校，我的两个朋友盯着我看，他们说我看起来压力很大，上课时老师也看出来了，真的那么明显吗
我真的不知该如何生存。好累，好无助，好无奈，好想放弃。所有的一切，我任了。
脚起泡了，很痛。头也痛。
不想多说
明天很忙，
下午两点到五点有CCA
两点十分到三点多有补课(分身术，哈哈)
五点到七点有课程
八点过后要去看madrigals
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
8:29 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
"How poor are they that have not patience!What wound did ever heal but by degrees?Thou know'st we work by wit, and not by witchcraft;And wit depends on dilatory time."
"To be or not to be, --that is the question:--Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to sufferThe slings and arrows of outrageous fortuneOr to take arms against a sea of troubles,And by opposing end them?"
To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow...
"Nothing can come of nothing: speak again."
"I hold the world but as the world, Gratiano,A stage where every man must play a part,And mine a sad one."
Oft expectation fails, and most oft there
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
8:23 PM
