Thursday, August 31, 2006
haiz ... i dun know ... i feel that i am abit unstable myself ... really need some quiet time to think ... need to clear my thoughts ...
ok .. first thing ... after toking to her ... i get even more ::: ... her words really scare me lo ... suddenly ponder lo ... who is this lady standing in front of me lo ... me and yl was like .. hmmm jam ?? suddenly felt that we are strangers like that ... her words are strong ?? or wadeva ... but it indeed leave an impact on me lo ... i dun know feel like i didnt know her lo ... juz feel strange when i see her or wad ... and suddenly juz dun have to courage to face :::: also lo ... i juz feel weird ... at a lost of wad to do and wad to say ... both have their point and aiyo ... i dun know la ... i now very blur le lo ... i thought things will be better after sleeping ... haiz but i didnt seems so lo ... then haiz ::: called me ... i was looking at the phone ... and in the end i decided not to take the call ... and turn off my phone ... i dun know wad she will think when she read this .. but i am now not in the right mood to do or say anything ... many too shock ba ... mind when blank after toking to her .... haiz ... i dun know ... i got alot of thoughts and feelings to say but i dun think i can probably type it all out here ... u wont really understand if you are not presence ... u may thing that all the words means nth ... but haiz ... u juz wont understand ... we were are juz shock ... and she herself knows ... she even smile and tell us that she was cold-blodded right ... but i didnt say anything ... because i was really lost in thoughts then ... haiz ... haha ... suddenly relise i type a whole chunk le .. haha ... kkz .. talk about something good ...
today zx and gab come my house after school [didnt go pri sch] ... we were ... ermmm ... toking ... then we went 888 plaza after that .... we had much fun lo ... we were all joking?? hmmm ... haha ... we tok about yesterday gun story ... haha gab reaction yesterday was damn funni .. wanna know wad is her reaction .. beg me la ... haha ... then we were joking around ... then haha ... we cycled ... so on the way back in the carpark, near vista ... something funni happen .. we were playing then is like i cycled behind i was saying bang bang bang bang bang bang .... then zx was imitating gab reaction yesterday .. cause too much bang then she was like got to move her head alot of times ... haha ... then both of the FALL ... i was like hahahahaha ... laugh until siao lo ... LUCKILY no one is HURT lolz ... cant imagine right ... i was actually laughing while typing this ... cant stand it haha ...
todae is TEACHERS' DAY ... haha ... had much fun ?? we were like playing poker and chating in class .... alot of pple in class tee ... then it seems like everyone decided to give mr raj something for his throat after all the scolding he have done ... haha ... all types of sweet and syrup even ' pi pa gao' was given lolz ... ms chee seems to recieve lots of chocolate ... but she was on diet ... so in the end the chocolate went into our mouth ... the mrs loh was nicely doll up ... but she still got to put on that pink shirt haha ... mrs rajakumar look cute ... and many jokes and fun ...
PC's singing ... so far so good ... today on stage still not bad can make it ...
realli appreciate all your care .. cause everyone was asking me wherther i am fine after sch ...
haha ... wonder if i miss out anything .. cant really think well now ... haha ... if forget anything tml then add on lo ... i juz need sometime to think thru ... and i realy hope that everything will be ok ... all the problems ... hmmm ... including my dear daughter de lolz ... haha ... juz wish that everything will be fine ... and i really need the time to clear my thoughts cause i now in a mess haiz ... juz wish everyone all the best int he outcomin prelim ... forget it ... i suddenly realise i dun know wad i have return ...
tml will be a better day ba ... maybe all this will be juz a dream ba ... haiz ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
8:10 PM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
hmmm ... LOTS of things to say ... how should i start ne ??
yesterday .. my mom was so bad lo ... my sis get 94 for MT and 98 for math ... then she was like saying my sister why cannot get full marks or wadeva lo ... say until my sister cry ... then she still got the cheek to tell me my sis cried lo .. then i juz like say her back lo ... her expectation was ... haiz ... haha then today sis get back english result get 93 .. i was so happi for her lo ... because her english didnt get 90+ before lo ... then i was asking wad she wan ? haha ...
today had a 'messy' day the school timetable was changed and everything was mix up lo ... after school when xiu house ... trying to get all the present done ... me and gab was doing the thinggy the the rest was like seeing 'scary' thinggy ... clear up and come home ... it was raining heavily then i was like 'luo tang ji' ... wet thru-out lo ... they all accompany me to my block then gab and ed went to take 901 ... and poor little zx got to walk home .. gees ... then on the way we were like playing wif the rain lo ... damn childish man ...
was talking to my cousin juz now ... he was telling me to visit him in malaysia ... hmmm ... realli miss going there lo ... but EXAMS ... haiz .. told him that he got to wait till december before seeing me lo ... then he was like ... hmmm ...
haiz ... i know she dissapointed ... i also dissapointed lo ... but cant help it ... really hope she will understand lo ... although she didnt say much ... but i sense it .. or am i ::: ... hmmm ... dun know la ... thinking of it juz make me feel bad ...
i really juz wish to get started studying ... BUT ... haiz ... things juz seems to crop up lo ... aiyoyoyo ... muz buck up le ... everyone JIA YOU kkz ... a few more months onli .. muz persist till the end kkz ...
i know u didnt mean it ... but wad done is done lo ... after thinking thru i know it is not yur fault lo ... although abit angry also dun know why ... haiz ... juz let the past be the past lo ... dun wanna say much ...
juz went to read yur account ... so came back to edit ... agree wif some point and dun agree wif others lo ... hmmm ... this few weeks is like both of us busy or wad ... so things juz seems to be wrong lo ... but i think after this exam period everything will be ok le lo ... juz feel stress ba ... then realli hope that u can concentrate on yur studies ... all the best ...
tml PC singing on stage ... ha was one of the top 10 chr idol ... dun know if he gonna make it ma lo ... juz wish him all the best haha ... tml teachers' day ... really hope the teachers will rmb to wear our class tee ... then hope that they would like the present ... think not going back to woodgrove tml le ... cause wad zx says make sense lolz ...
juz feel that alot of pple are stress up .. all my cousins are studying like mad .. then i was like so lack .. haiz ... feel very sad lo ... like so lack behind like that ... somemore my results already lousy enough le lo ... den i still dun wanna study ... going online going out all that .. haiz ... so bad lo ...
juz hope that everyone will be fine lo ... all the best in everything ... and stay happi ...
and i realli wish to go visit you lo ... hahaZ ... dun miss me too much la *shy..shy...*
feel like done alot of bad things recently ... GULITY ?? hmmm ...
feel bad,
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:00 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
haiz ... feel VERY guilty towards many things ... not sure if i wanna blog out ma lo ... haiz ... dun feel good lo ...
todae wan out wif zx early in the morning ... around 10 ba ... shop at causeway finding teacher day present and toking .. haha ... then at around 1++ gab and edmund come and join us ... haiz and it is like i didnt tell my lao bu and we went to northpoint ... feel very bad lo ... didnt tell her the math cancel all that ... haiz ... didnt wanna say much lo ...
this time round bought many 'weird' stuff for teacher ... bought make up stuff for chee ... a plant for lee ... a magnet and a cup(something like that) for rajakumar ... a 'basket' for koh ... and a tie for raj ... wont eleborate wan to take a look beg me la ... haha ...
damn tired now .. when out the whole day ...
haiz ... tml still got FOUR tests lo ... all the ::: teachers ... haiz ... wanna kill us ... then that raj wanna us go back on fri or something like that de la ... now brain already half died le ... not working ... wonder how i going to study lo ... haiz ... kkz .. going to watch TV le .. buai buai ...
>> by the way the lady who need my help pls pass me the present on wed ... cause i HATE last min work ... plz msg me further detail went you read thins .. thanx ...SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
5:30 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
today had my english prelim ... i feel that it was quite difficult ... the compo i did question four and it seems that no one do that question except me ... haha ... i feel that i was craping lo ... didnt really ans the question ... compre was a tiny little bit better la ... hope that i can score well lo ... abit impossible la ... my oral already so lousy le lo ...
after school went mac with zx lo ... we cycle there together lo ... do heymath ... and the results were ... lousy ... haha ... on the way saw gab, edmund and candice ... anyway poor zx got to cycle home alone after her tuition ... haha ... *evil smile*
tml maybe going out to buy teachers' day present but it seems that there izzint a suitable time lo ... later then decide see how lo ... hmmm ...
o ya and dear JIE NING told me muz mention her in my entry ... say she is a cute and good gurl ... although i wan to puke, but i promise to mention it haha ... so here it goes ... Jie Ning is a 'cute' gurl ... 'nice' girl ... 'adorable' girl ... 'wont bully people' girl ... 'people see people like'(direct translate from chinese) girl ... and many many many more good points that i cant bring myself to say it ... haha ... joking onli hor ... dun kill me ...
shall end here today ... going to do physics lo ... stuck at the question for a long time le ... juz completed my maths ... good nightz everyone ... muack ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:18 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
hmmm ... another LONG day at home ... hahaz ...
i am in a happy mood now ... because just got my first birthday present yesterday night ... haha ... so happy lo ... although the present came abit too early ... because got promotion ma ... haha ...
my lao bu bought a mp4 for me haha ... 100+ ... ok la quite cheap le lo ... i feel abit heartache for her leh ... yesterday went out she spend 700+ in last than 30mins lo ... because i bought a 'wu di'(talking dictionary) too ... my old one spoil le ... so went to bought the newest wu di yesterday lo ... there are alot of functions lo ... alot until i get abit blur(dun really know how to use lo) ... the dictionary not only can check chinese and english words ... can also check korean and japanese words lo ... haha ... *heartache lo*
later going to tuition ... haven do heymath yet .. tml got english exam .. but no exam mood ... wad should i do ?? hmmm ...
yesterday took down my basketball ... going to get people to teach me how to play it ... it has been on my cupboard seens last year ... say wan to learn in he end didnt even learn lo ... so it was been thrown aside for a long period of time ... haha ... so i took down yesterday and wash it( got dust ) ... haha ...
kkz ... end here ... today very happy ... hope nothing will spoil me mood today ... bless me ... gees ...
>> hope you will be ok ... wad done is done ... and i believe wad you have done is right .. you dont have to take wad others think seriously ... juz follow your way ... and i personally agreed with wad you have done .. if she knows it only at a later time .. it will hurt her more lo ... she will be fine after some time de ... give her the time to recover ... you cant expect her to be happy now right ... if she now happy then i think something is wrong lo .. anyway you already told her everything le ... so you cant do anything now also ma ... juz stay happi and worri less ... SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
9:52 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
hmmm ... now very very very bored at home lo ... got nothing better to do lo ... monday having english prelim ... my english is damn lousy ... but i dont even have the feeling of being worried for my exam lo ... haiz ...
yesterday gab come my house to stay overnight ... then elson come down to my house also ... then the three of us study chem till two midnight ... more like talking lo ... hahaz ... then me and gab chat until three plus before going to sleep lo ... gab was saying that she wan to wake up at six to study ... but in the end ... we woke up at seven plus *expected lo* ...
today chem test was ... i got quite alot of question dont know how to do lo ... because i didnt even really study lo ... even though yesterday didnt go out with them but i stay at home also sleep eat watch TV lo ... so make no difference whether i am out or in lo ...
haiz ... juz feel abit blur now lo ... it seems that i never will understand :: lo ... hahaz ... anyway ... Lai Z.X. i will not lose to you de ... yo yo yo ... go go go ... hahaz ...
ai yo yo how am i going to spend me time today ... haiz ... very bored leh ... later if can i will escape out lo ....
hmmm ... by the way hope that everyone will score well for prelim ... good luck ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
1:50 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
hmmm ... i know you will come to read my blog de ... i really hope that you
will be ok lo ... you know more clearly than me that what done is done lo ... i know you damn ::: ... but wad can we do lo ... anyway i disagree with what you are doing now lo ... why do you wan to repeat the same mistake lo .. you know this is not the true feeling you having ... then why bother to hurt another person ne ... you already feel guilty towards you know who le ... do you wan to end up feeling guilty towards another person lo ... although you didnt really 'know' her long ... BUT ... hmmm ... anyway you may say i dont understand wad you think ... haiz ... but ... ya abit selfish of you lo ... i dont know ... but i really hope you will think thru before you found yourself hurting someone lo ... and i know you will regret if you hurt her too ... juz dun force yourself to do something you dun like lo ... dun worri about the person you are feeling guilty towards to lo ... she will be fine de lo ... time heals ...
today i waited for someone after the english thinggy so that we can walk home together lo ... but end up the person juz walk home herself after playing with another person lo ... when i am right behind her lo ... hmmm ... wad can i say ...
today my friends are going out to celebrate Elson's b'dae AGAIN lo ... but i not going ... stay at home to K my book .. tml need to go back to school for chem test lo ... this week had been very tiring ... many things seems to be happening lo ... haiz ...
sometimes i juz wonder ... wad do :: means lo ... you juz tell me because you dun have anyone to say to or wad lo ... or do you think of me in the first place lo ... haiz ... sometimes juz dun wan to say much ... dun wan to spoil our relationship lo ... anyway thankz for letting me know that is wad you thing of me ... i never know i am juz so ::: in your heart ...i know my english sucks ... but wad can i do ??
forget it wad a stupid entry i have written ... anyway many of you may not understand wad i saying lo ... no point .. kkz end her .. really hope that gab they all can come over later ...
=> wad are friends for ???
o ya ... i forget to mention .... haha ... Miss Chee so funni .. yesterday was asking banana from her ... because she was eating banana in the staff room ... was joking with her lo ... but today she really brought banana for me ... haha ... damn cute man ... first time recieve banana from a teacher lo ... somemore she wrote words on the banana ... haha ... laugh until stomachache ... haha ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
2:25 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
today was a LONG day ... in the end all the remedial was cancelled lo ... so funni ... we were saying yesterday that today will have remedial till very late thats why decided to celebrate yesterday ... but end up this few days teacher all very good .. know we very TIRED so cancel the remedial ... haha ...
hmmm ... today we got our physics marks ... didnt do very well lo ... haiz ... why is my practical all so lan lo ... ai yo yo ...
haiz ... yesterday quarrel wif parents lo ... quarrel abit onli la ... i so guai one ... hahaz ...
bad things had been happening recently ... haiz ... why always at this kind of time ne ... haiz ... poor me lo ... gees ...
things seems to be better between them ... and least something is right ... hmmm ...
todae stay back after school to ask MC physics ... then go jogging (onli one round .. gees) ... hmmm ... went up the hill todae ... haha ... then we also got play 007 before going home ...
ELSON b'dae neoprint ...
>> What is coming will come, and we will meet it when it does ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
7:13 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
today when out to celebrate Elson's birthday (but tml then actual day lo) ... when Jack's Place to eat ... everything was so so lo, except all the joke issac and PC created lo ... hahaz ... the we went to take neoprint ... then go downstairs to burn the 'paper' ( i dun know wad's that call la) ... then now back at home blogging ...
haiz ... say until birthdae quite sad lo ... my b'dae .. haiz ... poor me ...
today went pass without much things happening ...
hmmm ... but i sometimes really wonder how much do i really mean to you ... wad do you take me for *wondering* ... maybe we really juz dun understand each other well enough ba ... maybe ::: means more to you ba ...
I really hope that everything will be fine ... and back to normal lo ... hope that no one is hurt or wad lo ... hmmm ... i got the feeling he knows le but act blur lo ...
and i also hope that my leg will recover soon ... after the two knocks i have when taking the neoprint ... gees ...
LJ told me that she fail one of her POA paper ... haha ... got treat hehe ... dun say i evil curse you kkz ... gees ...
anyway forget to mention ... i didnt really do well for my chem practical ... hope that i can do better in paper 1 and 2 so can pull up the marks lo ... by the way we were so funni todae, normally we would be eager to have tips for exam .. but this time round we actually rejected the tips .. haha ...
Haiz ... sometimes we just need to face the reality of life ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
6:59 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
hmmm ... juz wake up ... this few days have been very tired ... keep sleeping in the afternoon lo ... dun know why ... becoming piggy le lo ... gees ...
kx and py going to go and buy elson's birthday present today ... hmmm ... wondered wad they bought .. afew of us share to buy that present ... then today after school we met elson .. elson was asking where we go .. the py was whispering going home ... but thet SLOW mother of mine said we going to civic you wan to go ma ... oppz ... haha ... then me and py was about to faint lo ... haha ... the py say she not FAST lolz ... anyway i think too obvious le la ... i think he knows le lo ...
a bit sad ... unable to celebrate his birthday wif him lo ... haha ... anyway since she say so much .. i also dont wan to go le lo ... [hmmm .. that is my style of life ... too bad]
cousin have been not very well recently ... auntie quite worried lo ... bring him to come singapore to go see doctor ... haiz ... wonder he now how le lo ...
going to get pan pan help me upload song ... hopefully by this weekend it will be done ... (cross your fingers kkz) ...
sorry hor my blog still not really up yet .. like the tagboard and all that ...
wao .. today got quite alot of hmwk to do lo .. i still need to complete 2 phy paper lo ... i haven complete a weekend one ... gees ... anyway juz now i did one half way .. then really cannot tahan when to sleep ... then when wake up already over the time le ... oppz ... haha ... dun care recount (shhhh ... dun say out kkz) =p ...
haiz ... sometimes i really dun know wad adults are thinking lo .. they quarrel over small things lo .. and always push the blamn on each other ... maybe that is their 'meaningful' life ba ... [haiz ... dun wish to say much lo ...]
hmmm ... and i had a dear cousin of mine ... who lied to her mother lo and the best part of it is that she got caught ... and now it affected me lo (hmm ... in one way or another la) ... idoitic :: lo ... haiz ... [not going to say much also ... haha ... i learn not to say much of unhappi stuff nowadays .. too bad hor ... cant read interesting stories .. hohoho]
anyway ... i abit dun know how to face/wad to say to 'her' nowadays haha ... just hope that things will be better next time lo ... [very positive hor .. must clap for me kkz .. ]
* i know this entry abit lame ... haha ... today in the lame mood ... gees ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
4:58 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
haha ... today went up the 'thief boat' nooo ... more like ghost boat ... when to watch ghost game ... the movie duration is two hours ... and one and a half hours my eyes are coverd =p ... haha ... zx and gab like not human de lo .. esp zx lo ... they like not scared one ... the ghost movie like not a ghost movie to them lo ... zx can still laugh while watching ... hmmm ... i believe that pple are also wondering now whether she normal ma ... then the gab watch horror movie still got the mood to eat de lo ... they two bian tai de .. hehe ...
haha ... first time take 'photo' with zx ... haha ... anyway me zx and gab went to play arcade after the movie ... haha .. but i leave first ... hehe ...
anyway i never knew i can shot ball and ride on motorcycle so well ... haha ...
hmmm ... uncle went to hosipital today ... dun know wad lo ... like something about hand being poke by fish or wad de ... then poke until very deep or wad need to take x-ray ... and need to cut open to take out the bone or something like that ... hmmm ...
actually intended to go out study todae de ... go library but in the end we ended up in mac lo ... by the way who would believe we would go out STUDY lo ...
PICTURE of my two QIAN JIN and ME
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
6:24 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
hmmm ... loooonnngg time no post ... haha ... deleted all my post ... decided to start 'afresh' .. haha ... anyhow use words =p ...
today got O lvl english oral .. didnt sae very well ... but still hope that i can get good marks lo ... good luck haha ... the topic is friendship ... quite easy la ... at least easier then the topics few days ago lo ... haha ... pan pan 'accidentally' kick the teacher's table today ... hehe ...
today get suat ting to give me all the SHE and 5566 songs haha ... she got a whole load of them lo ...
haha ... today got an interesting phy lesson ... didnt even bother to argue wif her haha ... and i never know of any teacher came asking you ... you angry wif me izzit?? ... hehe ... hmmm ... dun wan to say much lo ...
today school got some sort of 'party' lo ... so many pizza ... cheicken wings and sotong ... o ya and vegetable roll ... dun know wads that call =p ...
i ate chocolate todae =p .. jealous .. haha ... *evil smile*
kkz other days then blog le .. buai ... going to watch TV .. thos studying - envious mah ... =p ... and i understand that i am EVIL ... =p ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
8:04 PM
will be ok lo ... you know more clearly than me that what done is done lo ... i know you damn ::: ... but wad can we do lo ... anyway i disagree with what you are doing now lo ... why do you wan to repeat the same mistake lo .. you know this is not the true feeling you having ... then why bother to hurt another person ne ... you already feel guilty towards you know who le ... do you wan to end up feeling guilty towards another person lo ... although you didnt really 'know' her long ... BUT ... hmmm ... anyway you may say i dont understand wad you think ... haiz ... but ... ya abit selfish of you lo ... i dont know ... but i really hope you will think thru before you found yourself hurting someone lo ... and i know you will regret if you hurt her too ... juz dun force yourself to do something you dun like lo ... dun worri about the person you are feeling guilty towards to lo ... she will be fine de lo ... time heals ...
