Thursday, August 31, 2006
haiz ... i dun know ... i feel that i am abit unstable myself ... really need some quiet time to think ... need to clear my thoughts ...
ok .. first thing ... after toking to her ... i get even more ::: ... her words really scare me lo ... suddenly ponder lo ... who is this lady standing in front of me lo ... me and yl was like .. hmmm jam ?? suddenly felt that we are strangers like that ... her words are strong ?? or wadeva ... but it indeed leave an impact on me lo ... i dun know feel like i didnt know her lo ... juz feel strange when i see her or wad ... and suddenly juz dun have to courage to face :::: also lo ... i juz feel weird ... at a lost of wad to do and wad to say ... both have their point and aiyo ... i dun know la ... i now very blur le lo ... i thought things will be better after sleeping ... haiz but i didnt seems so lo ... then haiz ::: called me ... i was looking at the phone ... and in the end i decided not to take the call ... and turn off my phone ... i dun know wad she will think when she read this .. but i am now not in the right mood to do or say anything ... many too shock ba ... mind when blank after toking to her .... haiz ... i dun know ... i got alot of thoughts and feelings to say but i dun think i can probably type it all out here ... u wont really understand if you are not presence ... u may thing that all the words means nth ... but haiz ... u juz wont understand ... we were are juz shock ... and she herself knows ... she even smile and tell us that she was cold-blodded right ... but i didnt say anything ... because i was really lost in thoughts then ... haiz ... haha ... suddenly relise i type a whole chunk le .. haha ... kkz .. talk about something good ...
today zx and gab come my house after school [didnt go pri sch] ... we were ... ermmm ... toking ... then we went 888 plaza after that .... we had much fun lo ... we were all joking?? hmmm ... haha ... we tok about yesterday gun story ... haha gab reaction yesterday was damn funni .. wanna know wad is her reaction .. beg me la ... haha ... then we were joking around ... then haha ... we cycled ... so on the way back in the carpark, near vista ... something funni happen .. we were playing then is like i cycled behind i was saying bang bang bang bang bang bang .... then zx was imitating gab reaction yesterday .. cause too much bang then she was like got to move her head alot of times ... haha ... then both of the FALL ... i was like hahahahaha ... laugh until siao lo ... LUCKILY no one is HURT lolz ... cant imagine right ... i was actually laughing while typing this ... cant stand it haha ...
todae is TEACHERS' DAY ... haha ... had much fun ?? we were like playing poker and chating in class .... alot of pple in class tee ... then it seems like everyone decided to give mr raj something for his throat after all the scolding he have done ... haha ... all types of sweet and syrup even ' pi pa gao' was given lolz ... ms chee seems to recieve lots of chocolate ... but she was on diet ... so in the end the chocolate went into our mouth ... the mrs loh was nicely doll up ... but she still got to put on that pink shirt haha ... mrs rajakumar look cute ... and many jokes and fun ...
PC's singing ... so far so good ... today on stage still not bad can make it ...
realli appreciate all your care .. cause everyone was asking me wherther i am fine after sch ...
haha ... wonder if i miss out anything .. cant really think well now ... haha ... if forget anything tml then add on lo ... i juz need sometime to think thru ... and i realy hope that everything will be ok ... all the problems ... hmmm ... including my dear daughter de lolz ... haha ... juz wish that everything will be fine ... and i really need the time to clear my thoughts cause i now in a mess haiz ... juz wish everyone all the best int he outcomin prelim ... forget it ... i suddenly realise i dun know wad i have return ...
tml will be a better day ba ... maybe all this will be juz a dream ba ... haiz ...
SZ
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