Monday, January 29, 2007
spending or earning??
enjoying or suffering??
enough sleep??
running ard like mad woman??
doing hmwk??
i dun know ... i know like i have been saying this or wad la ... but i really dunno whether i am right in gg to JC in the first place ...
have been dreaming this few day that i fail my eng n went ITE ... hope my dreams dun come true la ... but a thought juz come to me ... should i be satisfied in gg to poly ... dun go JC ... have i really enjoy anot ... why land myself in this state in the first place ... i really dun understand ... stupid or wad ?? all we do is running n studying .. all the tutorial are so boring ... i am not enjoying .. then why go ... wad if i fail my O's ... then wad am i gg to do ...
all the questions ... but who will ans ...
having hmwk that never seems to finish ...
if that is the reason that i land myshelf in this state ... then i also dun know how to say myself ...at this pt i dun know wad should i say to my decision ... wad will my O's be .. ya i know no point worrying or that .. but i juz cant help it ...
my cousin dun even give a damn ... not worrying ... wad is done is done ... so confident ... then me here ... c wad state am i in ... dun worri ya i know ... but how ... is my brain not functioning or wad ...
am i really so pathetic ... arghhhh ...
ok sat drag out by mom to do shopping ... bought quite alot of chlothes ... ard $200 ... godma pay for it ... then sun shop again buy onli till $70 ... mummy pay for it ... god bless ...
sun n sat juz waste my time away .. how i wish i did something to my hmwk ...i know no point worrying now ... gambate ...
y am i so stressed up abt my results ... izzit because i did not do well enough or wad ... all those subject that i was very confident abt ... now looking back i feel that i haven done well at all ... it seems that i gg to fail all ... *pressure* ... if i didnt land myself in JC in the first place maybe such pressure wont exist ...
why am i running like mad everyday ... my leg is calling for help ... i cant even walk ... i skip hockey every now and then ... i dun have the determonation ... n dun wan to endure ...
i question ... why i landed in such a state ...is it worth it ...wad do i gain ...y am i worrying ...wad is the point ...am i really that suffering ...wad the hell got into me ...y cant i juz agree to my decision till the end ...y am i always regretting ...am i right ...wad happen ...wad am i thinking ...wad went wrong ...why things turn out this way ........... i know life is like this ...wad should i do .................................LOST ...RCR ...wad the bloody hell happen to me ... arghhhh ...
i am still sick ... it dun seems to cure ... i gg to finish my medicine le ... n i still need to ...... wad de ...
lots of things to say to type, but i am damn tired now .. juz back from sch ... cya ...
i am fine .. juz need time and need to think thru onli ...
wad is done is done ... no use crying over it ...SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
6:44 PM
