Sunday, February 11, 2007
today went to cousin hse to celebrate my bro birthday ... dad birthday same day as him ... haha ... but i am broke ... when i heard that she was coming my heart sank ... but in the end onli her parent turn up ... hehe ... she called my yesterday at ten plus ... and she kept talking non-stop as if i should be celebrating wif her ... and dun sleep too ... anyway wasnt in the mood to really entertain her ... it's great that u know pple stand by u ... i know it sounds bad ... although they are dissapointed or wadeva ... they still stand by me ... n i am greatful ... cause we will gather together n had fun talking bad abt her =p ... ok la ... not really bad ... they juz ............. i know they limit kkz ... haha ... had a great time today ... although my mood wasnt that good at the mention of her name ... i juz enjoy it ...
today went JC shopping ... i am considering tampinese now ... pioneer abit ermmmm far n i got to walk a long distance into the sch ....
maybe i will end up staying in my godmother hse ... u never know ...
i know my mood very unstable nowadays n i seems to be crying very often ... i juz feel sad ... that's all ... ya will try to cheer up ... no matter wad life still goes on ...
never know it is so difficult to decide where to study lolz ...
anyway my decision change every now n then lolz ... haven really decided ... i think will register last min ... cause i dun wanna end up regretting ... will take a long time to consider first ... tml maybe continue shopping ...
i know it another two years ... another competition ... it's in our blood that we muz compete ... that is also one reason why i dun wanna go JC ... juz couldnt avoid it ... another few more years of hard work ... n i am determine to work hard ... i muz win ... even for once ... for 16 years ... all the suffering ... all the sadness ... i am gonna get it all back ... for 16 years ... i am always look as the second ... she is always better ... for once i am gonna work hard ... to win ...i am really having a hard time deciding ... my heart feel like bursting ... i got many things in my mind nowadays ... my head is twice it's size now ... my goal ... i will work hard towards it ... it may all seems so bad ... but u are never in my shoe ... u wont understand ... all that i have gone true ... all the pressure that is making me cant breathe ... i am determine ... no matter wad it takes .... u r e one who wan me to go JC ... u are the one who insist ... u are the one who quarrel wif me cause i wanna go poly ... n now u are the one who set all the rules ... dun wan this n that ... i juz wanna say ... wad the HELL do u wan from me ...
SZ
-To be or not to be, that's a question-
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